{"id":6168,"date":"2026-08-11T15:55:44","date_gmt":"2026-08-11T15:55:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/celebspaces.com\/?p=6168"},"modified":"2026-08-11T15:55:44","modified_gmt":"2026-08-11T15:55:44","slug":"my-husband-didnt-want-me-to-join-our-family-at-the-water-park-because-i-didnt-look-as-attractive-in-a-swimsuit-as-his-brothers-girlfriend-what-his-father-did-next-made-everyone-gas","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/celebspaces.com\/?p=6168","title":{"rendered":"My Husband Didn&#8217;t Want Me to Join Our Family at the Water Park Because I &#8216;Didn&#8217;t Look as Attractive in a Swimsuit as His Brother&#8217;s Girlfriend&#8217; \u2013 What His Father Did Next Made Everyone Gasp"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Ten months after giving birth to twins, I was still learning to live in a body I barely recognized. My husband made that harder with every comment, every comparison, and every look. I thought one family outing might give me a break. Instead, it forced me to see exactly what he had been doing to me.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Cover yourself.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Daniel dropped a towel beside my plate.<\/p>\n<p>I looked up at my husband.<\/p>\n<p>Paige sat in the high chair beside me, crushing a strawberry between both hands. Her twin sister, Piper, was trying to steal my sunglasses.<\/p>\n<p>Around us, families filled the shaded caf\u00e9 at the water park.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Cover yourself.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Excuse me?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Daniel pushed the towel closer.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Put it around you.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Why?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>His eyes moved toward the next table.<\/p>\n<p>Jane was sitting there beside Daniel&#8217;s brother, Elliot.<\/p>\n<p>And suddenly, I understood.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Put it around you.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Are you embarrassed by me?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Daniel lowered his voice.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mona, don&#8217;t make this worse.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;d spent ten months trying to make everything easier for him.<\/p>\n<p>That afternoon, I stopped.<\/p>\n<p>I didn&#8217;t know it yet, but Daniel had picked the worst possible place to say those words.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mona, don&#8217;t make this worse.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>His family was listening.<\/p>\n<p>And a few minutes later, his father would ask to see a photograph that changed the entire afternoon.<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>Three days earlier, our kitchen looked like a banana had exploded.<\/p>\n<p>Paige was smearing breakfast across her tray.<\/p>\n<p>Piper had removed one sock and was chewing on it.<\/p>\n<p>Again.<\/p>\n<p>His family was listening.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Please don&#8217;t eat your clothes,&#8221; I told her.<\/p>\n<p>She grinned around the sock.<\/p>\n<p>I laughed and grabbed my phone.<\/p>\n<p>The girls were ten months old, and most days blurred together. But sometimes there was a moment I wanted to keep.<\/p>\n<p>I snapped a picture of them.<\/p>\n<p>Then Daniel walked in.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Please don&#8217;t eat your clothes.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>My husband was already dressed for work: clean shirt, neat hair, hot coffee.<\/p>\n<p>I was wearing an old T-shirt with baby cereal on one shoulder.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Can you take one of me with them?&#8221; I asked.<\/p>\n<p>Daniel looked at the mess.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Now?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Unless you know how to make babies stay this age until tomorrow.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Can you take one of me with them?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He sighed and took my phone.<\/p>\n<p>I crouched between the girls.<\/p>\n<p>Paige grabbed my hair.<\/p>\n<p>I laughed.<\/p>\n<p>Daniel took the picture.<\/p>\n<p>Then his face changed.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;ll take another.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I crouched between the girls.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Why?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You won&#8217;t like that one.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Let me see.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Daniel, give me the phone.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He handed it over.<\/p>\n<p>I looked at the picture.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Daniel, give me the phone.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>My hair was messy. I looked tired.<\/p>\n<p>But Paige was laughing.<\/p>\n<p>Piper was waving her sock.<\/p>\n<p>I smiled.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I like it.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Daniel stared at me.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Your face looks really puffy.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Piper was waving her sock.<\/p>\n<p>My smile disappeared.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Puffy?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;And that shirt isn&#8217;t helping.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I lowered the phone.<\/p>\n<p>Daniel opened the refrigerator.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;When are you finally going back to the gym, Mona?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;And that shirt isn&#8217;t helping.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I stared at his back.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Maybe when I&#8217;m not running on broken sleep.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;They&#8217;re ten months old now.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I know how old our daughters are.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You can&#8217;t use the pregnancy forever.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I felt my jaw tighten.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I know how old our daughters are.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I carried twins, had a difficult C-section, and I&#8217;ve spent ten months running on broken sleep. Why is the gym what you&#8217;re worried about? You&#8217;re acting like my body is on a deadline.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He shut the refrigerator.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I didn&#8217;t say that.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You didn&#8217;t have to.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Daniel nodded toward my phone.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You didn&#8217;t have to.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Delete the picture. We&#8217;ll take a better one later.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>A minute earlier, I&#8217;d seen my daughters.<\/p>\n<p>Now I saw my cheeks, my stomach, my arms.<\/p>\n<p>I pressed delete.<\/p>\n<p>Daniel picked up his coffee.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Dad called. He and Mom are taking everyone to the water park Saturday for their anniversary.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Delete the picture. We&#8217;ll take a better one later.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I wiped Paige&#8217;s tray.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;That sounds nice.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Elliot and Jane are going.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>My hand paused.<\/p>\n<p>Elliot was Daniel&#8217;s younger brother.<\/p>\n<p>Jane was Elliot&#8217;s new girlfriend, a 25-year-old fitness trainer.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Elliot and Jane are going.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;d heard Daniel talk about her before: how fit she was, how good she looked, how she could wear anything.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;d tried not to care.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Okay.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Daniel looked me over.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Just think about what you&#8217;re wearing.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;To a water park?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You know what I mean.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Just think about what you&#8217;re wearing.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;No. Say what you mean.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He grabbed his keys.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Wear something long over your swimsuit.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;It&#8217;s the middle of summer.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Then you&#8217;ll be warm.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He left.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Say what you mean.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I stood there holding a wet cloth.<\/p>\n<p>Paige slapped both hands against her tray.<\/p>\n<p>I looked at the empty spot in my gallery.<\/p>\n<p>Daniel hadn&#8217;t deleted that picture.<\/p>\n<p>I had.<\/p>\n<p>Daniel hadn&#8217;t deleted that picture.<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>Saturday morning, I stood in our bedroom wearing the dark blue one-piece I&#8217;d bought for the water park.<\/p>\n<p>I studied myself in the mirror. The suit was comfortable.<\/p>\n<p>For once, that felt like enough.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Okay,&#8221; I murmured. &#8220;You can live with this, Mona.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Daniel walked in and stopped.<\/p>\n<p>I saw his expression in the mirror.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You can live with this, Mona.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Don&#8217;t.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He frowned. &#8220;I didn&#8217;t say anything.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Your face did.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He glanced at the long cover-up folded on the bed.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You&#8217;re not wearing that?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;ll carry it with me.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I mean over the swimsuit.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You&#8217;re not wearing that?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;No.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mona, I&#8217;m serious.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;So am I, Daniel.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He rubbed his forehead. &#8220;Why are you making this harder than it needs to be?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I turned around.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m putting on a swimsuit. You&#8217;re the one turning it into something else.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Daniel&#8217;s jaw tightened.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Have you seen Jane in one?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Why are you making this harder than it needs to be?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;What does Elliot&#8217;s girlfriend have to do with me?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You know exactly what I mean.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;No. I want you to say it.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He hesitated.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Jane actually looks attractive in a swimsuit.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I stared at him.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;She&#8217;s 25. She&#8217;s a fitness trainer. I carried twins and had major surgery.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I want you to say it.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;And they&#8217;re ten months old now.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>There it was again.<\/p>\n<p>That invisible deadline he&#8217;d apparently given my body.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;So what happens after ten months?&#8221; I asked. &#8220;Do I get fined for not looking like Jane?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mona, stop.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;No. I&#8217;m asking.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Do I get fined for not looking like Jane?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Daniel pointed at the cover-up.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Just wear it.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I said no.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>His voice dropped.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Honestly, then I don&#8217;t think you should come.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I looked at him.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You&#8217;re uninviting me from your parents&#8217; anniversary because you don&#8217;t like how I look?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Just wear it.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t want to spend all day pretending people aren&#8217;t staring.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Who?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He didn&#8217;t answer.<\/p>\n<p>I picked up the beach bag.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m going.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mona.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Kenneth and Celeste invited me. Paige and Piper are going to celebrate their grandparents. I&#8217;m going.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Who?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Daniel shook his head.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Fine. But don&#8217;t blame me if you&#8217;re uncomfortable all day.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I opened the bedroom door.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Maybe. But you don&#8217;t get to make that decision for me.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>At the water park, Celeste spotted us first.<\/p>\n<p>Daniel&#8217;s mother hurried over with both arms out.<\/p>\n<p>I opened the bedroom door.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Give me Piper before she forgets who spoils her.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I handed Piper over.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;She knows. She&#8217;s already looking for your purse.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Celeste laughed and kissed my head while she cuddled my daughter.<\/p>\n<p>Kenneth came up behind her.<\/p>\n<p>He had always made me feel welcome.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;She&#8217;s already looking for your purse.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Happy anniversary,&#8221; I said.<\/p>\n<p>He kissed my cheek.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m glad you&#8217;re here, sweetheart.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>The words hit somewhere tender.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Thank you. I wanted the girls to celebrate with you both.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Elliot and Jane joined us a minute later.<\/p>\n<p>Jane smiled when she saw me.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m glad you&#8217;re here, sweetheart.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mona, I love that swimsuit.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I glanced down.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;It&#8217;s doing a lot of work.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Jane frowned.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;It&#8217;s a swimsuit. Its job is swimming. That&#8217;s all.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I laughed.<\/p>\n<p>For the first time that morning, I forgot to pull at the fabric.<\/p>\n<p>Then Celeste clapped her hands.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;It&#8217;s doing a lot of work.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I have a surprise.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>A photographer stood near our shaded tables.<\/p>\n<p>Celeste explained she&#8217;d arranged casual anniversary pictures throughout the day and one proper family photo before we left.<\/p>\n<p>I liked the idea, especially now that I wanted to soak in every moment with my girls.<\/p>\n<p>Daniel didn&#8217;t.<\/p>\n<p>I noticed that immediately.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I have a surprise.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>Later, Paige and Piper sat safely with me under an umbrella while Daniel took pictures of Elliot and Jane near the shallow pool.<\/p>\n<p>Jane climbed onto Elliot&#8217;s back.<\/p>\n<p>They both laughed.<\/p>\n<p>Daniel took three pictures.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Daniel?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He looked over.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Yeah?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Daniel took three pictures.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Can you get one of me with the girls?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He lowered his phone.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Later.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Why later?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He glanced at me.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Because you&#8217;ll make me take 12 and hate all of them.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Can you get one of me with the girls?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I won&#8217;t.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You always do.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I just want one with our daughters.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Daniel leaned closer. &#8220;You&#8217;ll complain about how you look. And I don&#8217;t think they&#8217;ll come out looking how you want them to.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Then don&#8217;t look at it.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;ll still know it exists.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He turned back toward Elliot.<\/p>\n<p>Something inside me went quiet.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;ll still know it exists.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>An hour later, the twins were in high chairs at the caf\u00e9.<\/p>\n<p>Paige was crushing a strawberry.<\/p>\n<p>Piper had my sunglasses again. I laughed as I tried to take them back.<\/p>\n<p>Across the caf\u00e9, the photographer lifted his camera.<\/p>\n<p>Click.<\/p>\n<p>The photographer stayed nearby.<\/p>\n<p>Then Daniel walked over.<\/p>\n<p>The photographer lifted his camera.<\/p>\n<p>He dropped the towel beside me.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Cover yourself.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>And that brought me back to the moment where this story began.<\/p>\n<p>I looked at him.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Why?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mona. Just do it.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m eating.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Put it around you. Cover your hips, for goodness&#8217; sake.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Cover yourself.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>His eyes moved toward Jane.<\/p>\n<p>I followed them, then looked back at him.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Are you embarrassed by me, Daniel?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Daniel&#8217;s jaw tightened.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Don&#8217;t do this here.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You walked over here.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mona.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Are you embarrassed by me, Daniel?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Say it.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>His voice rose.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You just don&#8217;t look attractive in that swimsuit, okay, especially sitting next to Jane.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Jane&#8217;s face changed.<\/p>\n<p>Elliot pushed his chair back.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;What the hell, Daniel? Did you really just say that about your wife? And why drag me into it?&#8221; Jane demanded.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Stay out of it.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You just don&#8217;t look attractive.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Jane stared at him.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You brought me into it.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Daniel looked around.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;For goodness&#8217; sake, I&#8217;m just being honest.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I picked up the towel.<\/p>\n<p>For a second, he looked relieved.<\/p>\n<p>Then I folded it and placed it on the empty chair beside me.<\/p>\n<p>Jane stared at him.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;No.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>His eyebrows lifted.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;What?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m not covering myself because you decided another woman looks better.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mona.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;No.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Jane leaned forward.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;ve never asked him to compare us.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>His eyebrows lifted.<\/p>\n<p>I looked at her.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I know, Jane. He thinks he gets to do that.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Daniel scoffed.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Can everybody stop acting like this is some huge betrayal?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Kenneth had been standing a few feet away.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Daniel,&#8221; he said quietly.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;He thinks he gets to do that.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Then he looked at the photographer.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Could you show us that picture you just took of Mona and the twins?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>The photographer opened the gallery on his tablet.<\/p>\n<p>My stomach tightened.<\/p>\n<p>Kenneth turned the screen toward us.<\/p>\n<p>There I was at the caf\u00e9 table.<\/p>\n<p>Piper was stealing my sunglasses.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Could you show us that picture?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Paige was reaching toward me.<\/p>\n<p>My head was tipped back.<\/p>\n<p>I was laughing.<\/p>\n<p>I looked tired.<\/p>\n<p>But for once, that wasn&#8217;t what I noticed. I looked happy.<\/p>\n<p>Kenneth smiled.<\/p>\n<p>I looked happy.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;That&#8217;s the one I want printed.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Daniel groaned.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Dad.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Kenneth looked at him.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;What, Daniel?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You know what.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Kenneth looked back at the screen.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;What, Daniel?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I see Mona laughing with my granddaughters.&#8221; Then he said quietly, &#8220;She&#8217;s beautiful.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Celeste put one hand on my shoulder.<\/p>\n<p>She didn&#8217;t say anything.<\/p>\n<p>She didn&#8217;t need to.<\/p>\n<p>The photographer touched the screen.<\/p>\n<p>Another photo appeared.<\/p>\n<p>He stopped.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;She&#8217;s beautiful.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Oh.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>It had been taken moments after the first.<\/p>\n<p>Daniel had stepped into the frame.<\/p>\n<p>I was still sitting. Daniel stood over me with the towel in his hand.<\/p>\n<p>My smile was gone.<\/p>\n<p>My shoulders had folded forward.<\/p>\n<p>My smile was gone.<\/p>\n<p>Two pictures, seconds apart: same swimsuit, same body.<\/p>\n<p>But I barely recognized the woman in the second one.<\/p>\n<p>Jane looked at Daniel, then back at the screen.<\/p>\n<p>Daniel reached for the tablet. &#8220;Delete that.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I stood before he could touch it.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;No.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He stared at me. &#8220;Mona.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Delete that.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I took the tablet from the photographer and held it against my chest.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I said no.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Why would you even want that picture?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Then delete it.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I looked at the two images again.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;But I needed to see it.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Why would you even want that picture?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Daniel gave a short, frustrated laugh. &#8220;See what?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I tapped the first photo.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;A few months ago, I would&#8217;ve seen my daughters laughing. Now I see my stomach, my face, my arms. Because that&#8217;s what you&#8217;ve taught me to notice first.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mona&#8230;&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Too big. Too puffy. Wrong dress. 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